new life perhaps?...

din update my blog for like a month i think?... d previous post pun blum kna edit
lagi... watev.. it can wait.. hehe...

new post, new story, new person, new friends, new life... in d middle of april...
when i had him, i tot my wish came true, n evrytin luks real;
bt when i lost him, i realized dat he wasn't d one for me, n reality life was nvr real...
now dat was d past... n wat jz happened, happened... n there's notin we cn do 2 change it...

let's talk about now shall we?...
a new start, a new friend dat i jz met d end of d year of 2007...
we talked once.. n dat's it... d day i taught him piano... bumped in2 him at skul almost evryday, n we jz smiled at each other like wat other friends would do...
2008... few days after skul re-opens, he switched to our class..
weird but hey... new classmate!
few weeks passes by, n we bcame closer n closer to each other... bcz of our interests towards music... n mostly it's bout maksim... his new album, new songs, n d way he plays d piano makes me high..

in d middle of march was when d rumour was gettin hotter and hotter...
went to d beach to do our charity work, n i invited him n his friend to join us... it was d day dat he holded my hand... i tought dat he holded my hands cz we're close frenz, n dat's wat close frenz do... i think? so ok, i din noe a thing n i tot it was jz sumtin?.. i hav no idea wit wat i'm typin now...
other frenz thought otherwise... bt me... it's... ermmm.. d feeling's undescribable...
then d nex day, went shoppin wit him n another fren... was plannin to find maksim's album... but we ended up disappointed... after our fren went back hom, we went to an ice-cream shop, to eat ice-cream like duhhhh....
while enjoyin d ice-cream, i was enjoyin d atmosphere there...
it's nt quiet, bt there's jz sumtin bout dat place makes me feel comfortable?...
on our right side, there's dis clown entertaining childrens, which brings sweet smile n u cn hear d laughter of children dat'll jz make u feel happy witout any particular reason;
on our left side, u can see pple sittin, talkin, laughin n enjoyin evrytin wit their frenz and family...
n bside me was him...

we both were enjoyin d ice-cream... n suddenly...
a question jz poped outa his mouth...
i tought it was jz a question n notin more than dat... but he meant it, n he wanted me to answer it though he din show it, but i cn feel it...
he was lookin at me, n tellin me how he felt...
thru his confession, ol i cn say is dat...
i was impressed, shocked, angry, hapi n i felt sorry...
i was impressed cz he finally had d guts 2 say it out...
i was shocked cz i wasn't expectin sumtin like dis wil happen 2 me after d incident dat jz happened to me few weeks ago... evrytin jz happened in a sudden....
i was angry cz d guy i jz broke up wit weren't as romantic as he is... curse him...(dun mind dis)
i was hapi, cz... he told me how he felt...
n i felt sorry for him, cz i'm not d right person for him...

i think i'm fallin for dat guy... but i jz cnt... I jz CNT...

(wil b updated soon bebeh)